for the past few days i've not been able to sleep well. it has always been 2-4 hours of sleep. whats more, since last week, i've been working morning shifts. went through all the days just fine tho. especially today. i was this much to just skipping work and bury myself under the sand. but no, i shouldn't. i need the money. BAD, cause february's ending soon. as for today, the boy made my day which is why i kinda so call looked forward to work. He called me at around 6 am or so to check if i'm already awake. :DDD else the night before he called and left me a message, its been awhile since he last been that sweet. HEHE. but still, thanks for ignoring my call yesterday, which really spolit my entire day. but else, i went on fine for a bit. i think i shall catch up on my sleep today, I REALLY NEED TO GET RID OF MY DARK CIRCLES. SLEEP FARNA SLEEP. okay i'm off to rest or maybe even hit the sack early.

thanks for the early call my love. <3 (:

opening sucks big balls, one i was so tired, couldn't sleep the entire night.

two,that ass was being an ass, ignored my calls.

fuck it ah.i shall get hold of my grip.

but on the brighter note, i got to see faliq! and fiqah! after sooooooooooooooo longgg.

had some heart to heart talk with faliq and krysten.

god do i miss that man and his antiques.

well, faliq thanks for offering the ride back home, wasted no extra helmet.haha next time ahh you owe me a ride.haha.

okay i'm off to bed, well, i'll try to sleep.

another opening shift tomorrow, suck balls, i want him here so bad. )):

he's prolly out there with some girl. ):

<3

so, my weekend turned out pretty okay, something that i didn't expect. one, cause aan wasn't really into he whole idea of the picnic. so that kinda made my mood abit off. but everything managed to pull off. but else my weekend was a wholesome one, cause both friday and saturday i got to see his smelly face :DD friday was a short impromptu meet up. he came over to keep me company as i thought my sister would be home from school late, which she did not. but yeah, i appreciated it that he made time to come down all the way though he had to make his way back again after that. i love you alot do you know that? haha, afterwhich i went to meet aly. for shisha and dinner. a short and quick one. since someone didn't want me to get home so late i went home early.(:

that was friday, as for sat, Shikin came over in the morning and we whipped up pasta and mini pizza for our picnic. well, it didn't turn out like how we wanted them to but it was okayyyyyy. haha.shikin baby, we'll do this again sometime soon okay?had afew more meaningful conversations with him , but yeah shall keep it to myself. :DDsee my dear boy! i didn't post it, like you thought i would. haha love you!as for today, yeah i had work in the morning, dragged myself out of bed, cause i hardly slept.again.didn't want to head home straight so i loitered around and found myself bumping into Jared!hahaha i miss this asshole. well, apparently someone didn't recognise me ASSHOLE.

jared: (staring from afar)

me: OI what are you looking at!

jared: (looks away pretended he did not just stared)

me: OI JARED! how could you!!!! stare then look away NOT FUNNY!

jared: farna?! is that you!? oh my godddd i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.(took giant steps towards me and greeted each other with brotherly hugs.HAHA)

me: how could you jay how could you?

jared: i swear you look different now? and what happened? (looks up and down)

me: nothing happened? hahaha

jared: if you were a stranger and you're single i'd seriously go up to you and ask you out.

-.-! hahaha i knowww, stupid man, so we had a quick chat and since he was rushing off to meet his mom he decided to give me a lift home. (:

after so longgg, i miss your bike more than you! hahaha.

okay doneee.

i love you nur furqaan, remember i want my gift, that gift i told you the priceless one, AND YOU PROMISE you'd take a day off on my birthday. please do. <33

okay sayang die. heh

this thing that is going on at the back of my head it cuts through deep down in the veins of my beating heart. shall to or shall not to?

AHHH FUCK IT.

is everyone ganging up against me!?

ahh kay leave me alone.

i miss them.

bye,

i hate it when that backside choose not to reply my text message.

grrrrrrrrr.

made an impromtu meet up with the boy today in the morning, initially he was being a lazy ass, so i thought okay maybe its just worth asking, we did end up meeting :DDDDDDD, got ready early at about 10 and left for jurong at 11. made my way to his grampss. i just love the time we just spend cuddling on the couch watching dvds <3 spend more quality time togther till his uncle got back, hehe, uncle said, " korang romance romance ahhh?(you all romance romance ah?" hahaha well, of course the boy just laughed. so then we left his gramps to head to bugis. spend hours on just arcade. but even so, being around the boy was a bliss. i had fun.

aan; you, bila nak masak kan i?(when are you going to cook for me?)

me; (well, shocked at the question, ironing his shirt for him) bila you nak?(when you want?)

aan; bila you free?(when are you free?)

me; its when are YOU free?

haha okay but somehow we settled on next week. was thinking maybe a day before the 14th or on the 14th itself. well, its not exactly cause its valentines its cause it marks a special day ((: i enjoy most of the conversations i had with him today. tho most of the time it was mere day dreams, i want the day dreams to come true.

okay i'm off to bed, working in the morning tomorrow.

i love that backside.ALOT.

ps; he wants a "beca"(trishaw) as our wedding car.hahahaha. :DDD

YES THE BOY IS BACK LIKE FINALLY, initially wanted to pick him up at the airport, BUT, yeah someone called, got thru but i heard nothing. -.-

so yesterday headed out early to harbour front to meet nadine to head to sentosa, siloso beach, met shikin there. shikin's school had this fiesta thing going on. went there to give her some support for her netball game. so at 1.15 or so me and nadine head to the showers, it was HOTTTTTT, but i love the sun. good day to tan but the crowd was too overwelming and it made the weather worse, especially when i see girls all dressed up to head to town instead of the beach, saw this girl actually wearing a BLACK sweater and yeah what the hell was she thinking? -.- okay so afterwhich me and nadine headed to vivo to get a top for herself before she rushed down to serangoon for church. while i on the other hand headed down to boon lay to meet aan. :DD he was asleep so i only called to say i was there, when i was around the area. his mom whipped up something for us to eat for lunch and we had sometime with each other before that, i miss him like mad please. we left his house at around 8 met his friend at jurong east and headed to clarke quay, they got their cheap tickets to o bar and we headed to whopper bar for dinner. (: at about 10 or so we bid good bye with the outmost tightest hug ever and xos and i went to meet krysten and the others at supperclub. r and b isn't dope, got high not on the music but the dopesss. if you get what i mean.

as for today, i'm staying home. i need to save up. and the boy's meeting his boys today for some boys night out, drinking the whole night.

BYE.

i love you backside. <3

i'm dying would you be there for me?

i miss the boy extra much much much since the day that he's returning is drawing near, excited like crazy please.

i can't wait to see his face hug him so tight and _________ (: hahahahahaha.

okay i need my SLEEP! 5 days straight morning shifts are no joke okay.

):

aan i miss youuuu. come home soon. been playing what you said to me on the phone the other day (: in my head.

i love you like how i always do. always. haha okay mushy much.

so today had lepak session under void deck never had such lepak session for eons.

talk cocked with the kids.yeah i felt like i was babysitting 3 young kids just now.

hahahaha, so in the midst of talking cock and about life, all of us got hungry and had the sudden urge to have pizza,

so we called canadian pizza and had hawaiian and beef something. haha, for 19.90.

then a long way back home. shall head to bed soon, next working shift is tomorrow. 5 days past fast QUICK!

okay i love furqaan bye fagss.